The road to recovery for Melyssa Ford is plagued with depression.
On Sunday, the reality TV star shared an update on her condition two months after a horrific car crash that left her with numerous injuries.
“I’m battling depression,” she wrote. “Crushing, malignant depression. It was always there; it’s just been made a little worse because of the head trauma from the crash.”
Ford, 41, says simple tasks now take the effort of “40 men” and that she’s constantly looking for a meaning to life.
“The guilt I feel at having survived and not feeling constant gratitude is a heavy weight to bear,” she added. “I’m trying to jump back into my life but it feels there’s two me’s: before and after the crash.”
Ford, who starred on the Bravo series “Blood, Sweat and Heels,” adds she is attempting to seek help these days.
In early July, Ford was involved in a brutal wreck on the California freeway. It left her with a fractured skull, a concussion, bleeding on the brain as well as a 10-inch open wound.