Expanding her family did not come easy for Carrie Underwood.
“I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby. We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out,” the “Cry Pretty” singer revealed in an interview with Tracy Smith on “CBS Sunday Morning.”
Underwood, 35, who welcomed her first child, son Isaiah, with husband and retired NHL star Mike Fisher in 2015, said the couple endured more heartache, suffering another miscarriage in the spring of 2017 and one earlier this year.
“It happens. And that was the thing, in the beginning it was like, ‘Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it.’ And got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn’t work out,” Underwood said.
Though Underwood turned to writing in harrowing times — “literally right after finding out that I would lose a baby, I’d have a writing session,” — she also leaned on her faith.
“I had always been afraid to be angry,” the singer explained. “Because we are so blessed. And my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he’s the best thing in the world. And I’m like, ‘If we can never have any other kids, that’s okay, because he’s amazing.’ And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can’t. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.
“And I got mad,” she continued.
Fearing she would suffer another miscarriage, Underwood looked for answers from a higher power.
“Mike was away just for the evening, and I texted him, and I was like, ‘I don’t really want to be alone, so I’m just gonna go snuggle with Isaiah.’ And I don’t know how I didn’t wake him up, but I was just sobbing,” Underwood shared. “And I was like, ‘Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid.’
“And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt. And I feel, like, we’re supposed to do that. That was like a Saturday – and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great!” She added.
Underwood announced in August she and Fisher, 38, are expecting their second child.