Kenya Moore was a mainstay on the Real Housewives of Atlanta for seven seasons, so when she announced she wouldn’t be a part of the latest season, fans were widely bummed.

What compounded the disappointment was that fans weren’t going to get to experience Moore’s pregnancy journey and the birth of her now five-week old daughter, Brooklyn Doris. Even Kenya herself was sad that fans weren’t able to see some of the most important moments of her life.

“It broke my heart, but with all the stress I went through with this baby, I don’t know how I could have done it,” Moore told PEOPLE Magazine for their latest issue. “Even now, breastfeeding every three hours, changing diapers, being up at all hours — I just don’t think I could have been present.”

Kenya also detailed the numerous health scares she went through during her pregnancy, including a three-hour emergency C-section to deliver baby Brooklyn.

“It was really scary,” she says. “I really think that things happen for a reason. Even though I was disappointed to not come back to RHOA, I feel like it’s the best thing that could have happened for my baby.”

Back in June, Kenya Moore and the producers of RHOA disagreed with how much Kenya was to be paid for the then upcoming 11th season of the show. After a lengthy contract negotiation, the two side apparently couldn’t come to an agreement and Moore pulled out from the show. That said, there’s a chance Kenya could return to the show in the future.

“Never say never,” she said to PEOPLE. “Hopefully things will be able to work out and viewers will be able to see me come full circle.”

“Everything has to align for me to,” she added.

So you’re saying… There’s a chance!? We’ll take that! Come on back, Kenya!